Ellen, you can't keep saying all these problems.  No one likes it..

Problem

Why are people elaborating about Ellen DeGeneres?  What do you think about how things now are about bowing down to her like she's better or however you wanna say that?  I will not accept whatever they think Ellen ^can do to me^.  Like it's oh so fascinating.  Wow, must be reveling in the experience.  You have no power over me.  You're just ^wild^.  So, what, you want me to figure out what's wrong with Ellen?  I don't know.  Is she meaner now that I watch?  I asked that yesterday, something of the nature.

Never!

I feel no one was ever open to me being an Ellen DeGeneres person.  They encourage people who are 15 today..

I just feel there's a lot of turmoil right now.

What did you think..

..about Ellen being much older than we thought?  You must miss the old Ellen.  I do not know about her like that.

A Happy Topic

I like Ellen to be stimulated, but what do you think about it being because of people who find fault with her?

Stressed

I ended up buying a book I don't know if I should return.

Another problem, my dad is making fun of me for his being born in 1950, and Ellen probably said to do it.  He was being mean, I didn't even do anything.

I just posted how I was stressed about something and worried about my hair fading.  What don't you get?  It's something important to guide your life.

My dad won't stop being mean.  Why do you care even if I cursed about it in the past?  He won't stop!

Why sit there and make me feel guilty?  Do people have nothing to do?  Why you so picky about how I behave?  I was the 1 who made things better.

What's so bad about what I do?

Problem

Why did I get bothered for posting about my post on being stressed?  You can't treat me like I'm black and different or something.  I got that message just now, too.  I also got the message I don't need good food.  Quit making me out different as a different race.  Unfortunately, it sounds like everyone would say Ellen said that and the message traveled to me.  I don't really know.  I would not listen if anyone really said that.  Something is making my head feel more like an African now, and the stress bothers me cuz it'll gray or ruin my hair.  I can't deal with this stress.  I just wanted to post about it.  And you're watching how I'm not smiling.

Stressed

Is Ellen mad at me?

I realize it's weird to ask, but I used to curse a lot and she does things that make me feel like I'm a bad person but don't actually believe it.  She admits it, she does it.  She's nice, but she seems to feel I am bad.

I don't like people picking on how I used to look from too much homework, and I know that's what it is.  I also know that people would channel Ellen DeGeneres and it was not a happy thought, not my fault.  Those are the only reasons to think I'm not that good.. in this case of this case.

Not Right

My mom probably taught my dad to be too inherent..

He acts like he likes Ellen but not me to like her.

Outta the Bath

I am doing my nails.  I will watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  People fail to realize that I am human.  Like, me watching her show seems like someone who's not even a person watching.  I think it's a big joke for people who don't watch something to watch it and same way around.  I wonder if Ellen saying she's already established in the world thinks that if someone is attractive, it hurts her cuz that means it's her.  That's that weird L.A. logic.  That isn't true back home.  I know she just makes things up all the time to get it out so no one comes in and does something weird.  I'm not upset, I'm just saying about what happens to me when I watch her and then think on other extraneous things partly from her, too.

Question

Why not listen to me?  People listen to others, like my dad and strangers.  They just avoid others and hurt me, saying me being honest and nice being the only reason they care about me.  It's not true, if I were like other people they would do that anyway and should do that anyway.  Lots of people do wrong things like their elders to get a tickle, so-to-speak.  I could start naming lots of names in different ways I mean, but I won't, at least not now..

Maybe, I accused people of being bad who think they are good, but I am talking about my problems with others and using them as an example of who feels better for no reason to be different.  There's something different about my dad to note, you thinking all we are are fatpeople.

Also, I was just thinking, I found Ellen always has a harsh side now.  That's like an old best friend.  What happened to the old Ellen?  She grew up?  What should I be doing watching the show?  It's been on like this 11 years.  I guess she picks what she picks and seemingly who out there.  How can a person be better than another person?  These people are innocent.  All I know is they look for things people like

and do it to be interesting.  They make a point, and it bowls over.  I don't think things went rather well..  It's not that it's all wrong that they did.  You just see things go wrong.  Ellen wants everyone to be happy, but maybe she still likes you|those bad kids best to use as a weapon against us when we watch the show.  My teacher Ginny wanted to be bad and wild for fun, she looked sad when she knew she had to be more preppy but in a contained way.

What does it feel like when you watch the show in the audience?  What will we do if Ellen needs a break or wants 1?  She probably will still be active or make another show.  Then, you'll still have your chance.  Depends on what you do with it when you have it.  I'm just worried about the sad kids, as well as about Ellen.  Will they start taking to new people and ways?  I might have a talk show.  I'm trying to get in a movie, a way of making money to do that, too.  I am interested in movies but am getting older.  You can at least kinda more be yourself in a talk show.  I think they are filing in the kids my age though to be in movies and interact.  The others watch and judge.

I hope this post was okay and didn't hurt your feelings!  It went into some deep topics.