Friday, April 18, 2014

Problem

My dad listens to my mom but not me.

Problem

My dad keeps acting like I'm not white.

Stressed

I ended up buying a book I don't know if I should return.

Another problem, my dad is making fun of me for his being born in 1950, and Ellen probably said to do it.  He was being mean, I didn't even do anything.

I just posted how I was stressed about something and worried about my hair fading.  What don't you get?  It's something important to guide your life.

My dad won't stop being mean.  Why do you care even if I cursed about it in the past?  He won't stop!

Why sit there and make me feel guilty?  Do people have nothing to do?  Why you so picky about how I behave?  I was the 1 who made things better.

What's so bad about what I do?

Well

It's a good topic..

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Problem

Sorry I guess something was wrong with my snap reaction @ eating, but I have my rights and will not succumb to race plus not so easily.

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So

How can I get out of this?  People stressing me out now.

Problem

I think it's my dad stressing me out now.

Problem

My dad is attempting to stimulate me cuz he's uncomfortable.  He's acting like I'm stupid.  He's the 1 with the problems.  He just can't stand to see me unaccepted cuz I was raised by him and my mom and sometimes been by Gramma etc.

Problem

I wanted to dig in and have fun, in a way.

Problem

Why are people telling me I am bad and inferior racially?  I just gained some weight.

Mobile Soon

may or may not post

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Problem

Why did I get bothered for posting about my post on being stressed?  You can't treat me like I'm black and different or something.  I got that message just now, too.  I also got the message I don't need good food.  Quit making me out different as a different race.  Unfortunately, it sounds like everyone would say Ellen said that and the message traveled to me.  I don't really know.  I would not listen if anyone really said that.  Something is making my head feel more like an African now, and the stress bothers me cuz it'll gray or ruin my hair.  I can't deal with this stress.  I just wanted to post about it.  And you're watching how I'm not smiling.

Sorry

Guess people don't like when I say stuff like that, like being stressed.  Some of it made sense but wasn't what I came on knowing I'd write.  I still don't know, guess it was okay to say nicely, hopefully won't bother people too much later or whoever is bothered..

Precious Moments

People who find they have 1 or a few Jewish last names who feel they can make it seem to be upset at my mom for thinking things are precious.  Anyway, it's a thing certain people do, and on that note I mean you can't strip people of what they have, as you can see using the example of yourselves.

Question

I can't have this!  People all around insulting me, all knowing me in the world and so randomly coming up.  This wasn't like this without Tim Burton.  I like him, wonder what's gone wrong.  I'm not paying for it.  I was nice to him, at 1st.

Stressed

Is Ellen mad at me?

I realize it's weird to ask, but I used to curse a lot and she does things that make me feel like I'm a bad person but don't actually believe it.  She admits it, she does it.  She's nice, but she seems to feel I am bad.

I don't like people picking on how I used to look from too much homework, and I know that's what it is.  I also know that people would channel Ellen DeGeneres and it was not a happy thought, not my fault.  Those are the only reasons to think I'm not that good.. in this case of this case.

What if..

..God was an alien?

Audition

I auditioned for "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" that I could ousting any song I know.

It's the little things that matter..

Like putting ketchup on your potatos and butter on your hamburger bun.

TV

It's easy to differentiate Chinese and Indian|Middle Eastern religion.  The Middle East is from India.  China may be, too, but dunno.  India has stuff like the (sp?)

Bahatva Gita
Bothisatva

I dunno what the Chinese have, Buddah?  I thought he was Indian and Chinese followed therefore.

Solution!

[You could] not make posts that interest me then!-Just kidding!  You seem to always think they should be with you, interesting.

I bet you like making posts that interest me, though, since that's what you do, but I'm asking out.  I just don't want to feel like I'm someone who's a burden for anyone but actually "appreciate" it in some way.  I just don't know because I think other people are the same as famous people and wouldn't really mind if they talked to me a lot.  I mean, it's Twitter, too.  I know you write letters once a week to everyone.

I had felt you could change and just gear yourself to younger watchers and older watchers.  I definitely appreciate famous people cuz I wanna be 1, too.

I notice most people are too busy to care, like when they don't type weird things like this.  Like, they don't have to think about it.  I mean people my age range.

So, I am there for you as someone who is younger, at least, but I would also be happy to see you post to the younger people and focus attention on them.  I can't tell you to please me.  =/

Question

Ellen, why are you on Twitter even on Thursdays and mostly why Fridays?

Age

People like to pick on attractive people of other races mostly who are older but in the end also secretly treat them badly somehow of their own age I bet..

Problem

People think that what things are who are bad and rude about how mature they are, people in their late 30s and early 40s, that we're bad if it's not some thing they wouldn't say that makes sense, cuz if they say what makes sense won't get them all they want.  They are now strict to younger kids like we deserve nothing, so are going around spreading hate.

Problem

Orlando is out of step with the world.  You don't punish your offspring|younger generation and even in older age like way past 17 .. in things like conversation, explaining yourself innocently in a topic that to them like all strangely is disagreeable .. without any hint in a warning just to have the opportunity to have something you can punish .. You see, people believe in taking chances as being brave and fixing mistakes, not at all worrying about holding back because that was what was considered bad and possibly labeled selfish as well ..

Did you know that..

link

..Education is simply an extension of studying all things til 17?

Additional Twitter

Friends on the Go

What I Meant

I just meant I guess I was wondering why anyone would talk so much to my dad cuz he will say what he means, in a way.  And, that is to insult you and do the deed and such.  He just makes up some answer to look cool, not sure if he minds me admitting it now.  He thought he was up there like it was no big deal, just to be considerate of our jealousy.  I don't know, I am guessing someone else pretended partly and then in another way different.  Anyway, whatever it was, what do you think about punishing me somehow for not watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" like I was being sneaky?  I think I was preoccupied by homework and my future.  I'm supposed to do this social group, volunteer, then work part time.  I wonder what the nature of my work will be.  I wanted to go to school some, maybe can do it later.  My life does not revolve around school and work, inymore (anymore.)  It doesn't seem to revolve around anything.  Maybe to my health and wanting to live.  I'm interested, how am I sneaky?  Why would I care, literally?  I do what I want or can and then fill out what it also consists of.  Being sneaky, anyway, is not bad, when I do feel sneaky.  I am always good on the outside, or was most all of my life.  What is the joke that there's nothing here for me?  I didn't know of that til now exactly.  This is a weird topic, but I mean I'm interested.  Maybe, the experience won't be quite the same.  I what if I can do anything about it and what I can do.  I am glad we get the big summer break, soon.  True, I've been on a break for almost 10 years.  Oh yes, I wanted to go to college online or do student work.  I was gonna go up north so I would be more stimulated, too.  They are good monitors, too, like the people who work with you on your plans..  Another thing to note is I think the show might mean something to me since I am older, too.  I didn't really just get that, why as the reason.  I see that it's the same kinds of things and no young teens.  That's probably what's different.  Boy, I better catch this show, no matter how much it shouldn't cater to me.  My descriptions and other postings aren't so great, now.  I wonder if people want that to stay the same, too.  No, it's a good change and anyway something I've been wanting.  Not meaning to be mean, but that's what you'll find.  So, what was it that I was supposed to watch but wasn't like told that?  Perhaps, I also felt no one even wanted me to.  That's it, and then I did.  Then, they said it was too late for the previous seasons.  That sounds like my good singing.  It seems I've been used and am expected to do what I've been stopped from achieving.  Oh well.. too bad..  :(  No one's fault, probably.

A Rehashing-

Some of my experiences may seem wrong to you, but they were not what kept me from school.

For some reason, I recollected what Orlando used to be like.  I sensed other beings and thought of how they looked and stuff.  It's hard to get the point, as I was rather miserable.  It was funny what was involved.  It was before Steve Irwin was killed.  I kinda built myself off that, but the magic stopped.  I used to see shadows move.  I got different messages.  I was 19, it was 2005.

Up north in Berea, OH, @ Baldwin-Wallace College and Conservatory, I actually heard things, stuff I liked, like funky things and deep things but all aesthetically pleasing.  I heard so many things as I went about school.  I never caught up in history and got too tired of theory - music.  What I recall now is I heard a devil in some obscure direction clearly sucking me like it loved me.  I heard various noises and talking as I walked outside, like by the sports area.  I remember, as it stopped, it said, "I'll save you (Christina) I'll save you from falling up!"  It was like an alien, black with slanted inward blue eyes with black little pupils.  It looked like a cartoon and was very happy.  There was a red devil at the foot of my bed.  I felt air go up me and thought I was floating a little.  There was a big hairy 1 for me on the other side who was both boy and girl.  I kept tossing and turning, like I could not will myself to go any faster.  I woke up and for a long time smelled like death but in a good sorta comical way.  After I thought my arm grew a foot and back, I had blood under my armpits.  It didn't go away until a week on the 1.  It was the forearm, though.  It hurt so much but in a good way.  My hands would harden, the bone, so much, up north.  It felt good after.  After my back rehardened from being jelly, the magic stopped and I think I was depressed and didn't know what to do about school since those 3 days in bed, not reaching a phone.  I had walked around, and I imagined other kids made of glitter.  You see, I already knew my life had been or become an experiment, that I was put in another mother's body.  Then, I learned it was magic or more technical.  I was mad that they wouldn't make me feel better about a new school.  They promised this world would stop.  Now, people are mad at me for not using extra hours for school and when I walked all night - but I could make it, just maybe should have cut out organ and history.  No one seemed to really touch|reach me.  It's too bad.  Of course I'm sorry, but I thought the experiment had to compensate for me.  I was supposed to have another life where at 5' I was still a kid.  I was ready for that.  I felt bothered in the summer, too.  I just feel that's what let this happen.  I am interested in magic, but at least I've seen a "ghost" which was friendly, all friendly.  Some ominous in Orlando, the dark shadows.  That's what Orlando was like, though.

Also, I heard weird walking upstairs when I think no one was up there.  What else.. Think of this, I heard something bubbling up high saying, "How can I help you," like they were wearing a mask.  I've never heard sounds of this quality, so I don't know if it was aliens.  I saw a mechanical bug and then it disappeared, too.  I wanna feel like this other-worldly stuff is for me, but I feel my dad is stopping it.  He has family in that area, too, in the city I think.  I am concerned why he keeps flipping me off in secret like I did too many bad things and acting like maybe that was it, the magic.  I wanted to do something in real life, but I just sense anger about me in college.  I am sorry, but there was always a reason.  So, dunno.  I guess it was partly like dreaming, but I get pleasing sensations.  I am better and have more opportunity to feel touched but maybe not as much emotion.  I just think it's important.  You can be who you want and not die.  I used to worry about that, though, like not functioning and just wanting to lie there, but no.  I dunno @ the bone stuff, though, that was something other than words.  It's important for humanity.  I hope people will figure out how they feel about this.  It could mean escaping death.  I dunno, I dunno how to get it back.  I heard things in New Orleans that partly made me suicidal.  I heard hisses and ticks around my bed like the world was different.  That Charlie and the Chocolate Factory must have made me hear things.

Well, sorry, if you don't like this, but I hope you will consider I was a good person and this stuff happened and would be valuable.  Hm, smartphone on TV, yes I am excited for that.  My advice is also that you have to have your life under control to utilize magic.  I do hear little things now.